In the Process of Surrendering to my Kundalini

In the process of surrendering to my kundalini. Percolating, sitting with it whatever that may be in the present moment. Seemingly doing nothing but at the same time seeing that it is the ego refinements coming fast and furious. Watching the ego squirm and wiggle uncomfortably in my own skin. Rising to a new plateau of grace. Helping and serving all the while feeling like nothing is happening. Surrendering to the Kundaliini inside of the divine agenda. Validation needs to come from the self, not from outside the self. Not from the jockeying for position or the narcissistic ways the ego can behave in ourselves or in those around us. All about the Kundalini, all about love. No longer able to cling to the comfort of being kind and just and loving in every situation. Being called to do more that is so far out of my comfort zone. Surrender is all that is left, all that is needed, all that is required and yet within that surrender can come lots of these uneasy days, weeks, months of adjusting to the unfamiliar in order to surrender and obey...No need to have answers other than that we are on the right path. I ask Arana, my kundalini, for help to understand and in this last couple of weeks inside this plateau she is sending me spiders in the outside world. In one instance a spider I was asked by a stranger to take safely out of the grocery store follows me home - on my clothing and then is there again- as I leave for work the next morning and there again - as I return home. Spiders are showing up everywhere around me, every day, all the time in the physical and so I get my answer that all is well and I am being led on this path and that I am not alone after all… :)

About Elizabeth

Elizabeth Daulton Gonzalez is a Kundalini Awakened woman living in the Pacific Northwest of the United States. She has come to know and identify with her Kundalini Divine Self, as Araña, the Spider. Read more posts by Elizabeth.